Yesterday was great up until about 9:30...
My chummie Facebooked the guy that I like telling him that one of her friends likes him - I gave her the go ahead so that bit was fine. It was when she asked if he liked either of the two friends (me and our other mate) and he said no.
I guess I kind of felt like someone had actually just gone and punched me right in the stomach and then in my chest and then twice in my face. You guys probably think I'm overreacting - but honestly, it's how I feel.
I don't even think I can describe how much I like him with it actually making any sense. And the worst part of it is - he still doesn't have an actual clue of how much I actually like him.
He also doesn't know that I know what my chummie said to him because she told him I didn't know - even though I know. So that's a good thing because he doesn't know it's me who likes him and never will because there is 0 chance that he's reading this blog right now...I think....
Well...I don't actually know how to deal with this situation. I don't know if I should just tell him because that will be a big relief-type-thing and stuff. But if I get horribly rejected - I'm going to have to avoid him for a year or so which won't be fun because I have all the same interests as him so I'll have to just stop doing the things I like to avoid him...
Or I could just not tell him until he leaves school...but it might be too late then, he'll probably have a girlfriend by then and I won't be able to do anything about it...
Anyone got any suggestions?
That's it
Kalli xxx
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